Tag: healing

advocacy My first pregnancy was going beautifully…until it wasn’t

My first pregnancy was going beautifully…until it wasn’t

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My first pregnancy was going beautifully…until it wasn’t. We were doing things in the traditional order: we married, bought our first house and, after nearly a year of trying, were expecting our first child. I was ecstatic. I had always looked forward to being a mother. After years of praying...

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Life Stories Diary Where do I start? Everyone has their own childhood story to untangle

Where do I start? Everyone has their own childhood story to untangle

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Where do I start? I had a very, very weird childhood. Some people have the religious trauma, some have the undiagnosed neurodiversity factors, some have the abusive father factor, some have the poverty angle – I’ve had all that and then some. But I know I need to start dredging through all this....

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Anorexia An inside story about the hard slog of eating disorder recovery

An inside story about the hard slog of eating disorder recovery

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My eating disorder (ED) stipulated that isolating myself was essential for survival. I had no capacity left in my mind or body to function as me. Until I could master self-compassion and self-care, any progress would be skin deep. To trust myself and become part of my treatment team required connection with...

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Eating Disorders Recovery, healing and growth are compromised when addictive behaviours shield an eating disorder

Recovery, healing and growth are compromised when addictive behaviours shield an eating disorder

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“Recovery” is a treacherous word that is spoken about freely by people who have admitted they live with an addiction. From drugs to alcohol, eating disorders, workaholism, depression, anxiety, control, overthinking, self-harm or perfectionism, none of us are perfect yet many of us find a way to hold our pain...

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Eating Disorders Home is where eating disorder healing will happen

Home is where eating disorder healing will happen

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To eat and be placed in a holding yard is neither helpful, effective nor holistic when trying to recover from an eating disorder (ED). While hospital is useful and often necessary, our health system is like a bucket full of water. One that has so many holes that it is...

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Eating Disorders Clarity on anorexia nervosa: from childhood through motherhood

Clarity on anorexia nervosa: from childhood through motherhood

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Jessica turned 38 years old on the day that her story was posted on The Diary Healer.  After reading her insightful account and seeing the photo of her carefully cradling her newborn child, flanked by her two daughters, I asked myself, “Is this the same person you treated for restrictive...

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Books How anorexia strikes fear into food and causes life to crumble

How anorexia strikes fear into food and causes life to crumble

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When anorexia nervosa (AN) dominated my mind, I behaved in some really crazy and sometimes dangerous ways. I would not dream of behaving like that today, because AN no longer bullies or manipulates my thoughts. But during my most vulnerable moments, I lived life on the edge. Even a cookie could...

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Eating Disorders Departing a rudderless sea to save myself

Departing a rudderless sea to save myself

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When young, I never imagined the world had a plan of its own. I was only aware of my existence and those close to me, never questioning there was choice between how, where, what or why anything may happen and how I was expected to manage the external world when...

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Life Writing Detachment writing and how it helped me to reclaim my voice

Detachment writing and how it helped me to reclaim my voice

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I recently wrote a short story about a little girl. I wrote about her pain and confusion. I wrote about her loneliness and, also, about glimmers of hope and happiness she carried in her heart. I wrote about her amazing sense of intuition, intelligence, compassion, responsibility and her incredible inner...

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Diaries a lens for eating disorder memoir

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From eating disorder shame to ‘an open book’  A silver lining of the COVID-19 pandemic was the gift of time to embark on the incredible journey of writing my memoir. A project of this magnitude always seemed too daunting but as soon as I began pouring through my old diaries,...

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